Kate Moss says she shed many a tear over her split from Johnny Depp.
The model recalled the aftermath of her and the "Lone Ranger" star's breakup in the December issue of Vanity Fair.
"There's nobody that's ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a bit. I believed what he said," Moss told the magazine. "Like if I said, 'What do I do?,' he'd tell me. And that's what I missed when I left. I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust. Nightmare. Years and years of crying. Oh, the tears!"
In the interview, Moss told Vanity Fair contributor James Fox that she regretted doing the 1992 Calvin Klein campaign that helped skyrocket her to fame.
"I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts," she said. "It didn't feel like me at all. I felt really bad about straddling this buff guy. I didn't like it. I couldn't get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die."
A doctor offered to prescribe her Valium, she added, but she declined after being advised not to take the pills.
"It was just anxiety. Nobody takes care of you mentally. There's a massive pressure to do what you have to do," she explained. "I was really little, and I was going to work with Steven Meisel. It was just really weird -- a stretch limo coming to pick you up from work. I didn't like it. But it was work, and I had to do it."
Moss also said she doesn't take good photos when she's not modeling, and revealed how her friend John Galliano, the former Dior designer, helped calm her wedding-day jitters when she married rocker Jamie Hince last year.
"I don't want to be myself, ever. I'm terrible at a snapshot. Terrible. I blink all the time. I've got facial Tourette's. Unless I'm working and in that zone, I'm not very good at pictures, really," she said. "On my wedding day, I'm like freaking out, obviously. 'You've got to give me a character.' And [Galliano] said, 'You have a secret -- you are the last of the English roses. Hide under that veil. When he lifts it, he's going to see your wanton past!'"
Now, she added, she is "quite settled" into married life.
"I don't really go to clubs anymore. I'm actually quite settled," she told the magazine. "Living in Highgate with my dog and my husband and my daughter! I'm not a hell-raiser. But don't burst the bubble. Behind closed doors, for sure I'm a hell-raiser."
The December issue of Vanity Fair arrives on newsstands in New York and Los Angeles on Wednesday, and nationwide on Nov. 6.