Megan Fox says she no longer emulates Marilyn Monroe

Instead of chasing fame, Megan Fox is running from it.

The "Transformers" actress tells Esquire magazine she wanted to be like Marilyn Monroe and even has a tattoo of the late actress on her arm, but she has begun the process of having it removed.

"I started reading about her and realized that her life was incredibly difficult," the 26-year-old explained. "It's like when you visualize something for your future. I didn't want to visualize something so negative."

Fox went on to compare Lindsay Lohan to Monroe.

"She wasn't powerful at the time. She was sort of like Lindsay. She was an actress who wasn't reliable, who almost wasn't insurable.... She had all the potential in the world, and it was squandered," she continued. "I'm not interested in following in those footsteps."

Fox now admires Ava Gardner, who "was a broad" who spoke her mind and "had power."

The new mom, who welcomed son Noah in September with husband Brian Austen Green, also touched on fame and her faith in the interview.

"I don't think people understand," she told the magazine. "They all think we should shut the [expletive] up and stop complaining because you live in a big house or you drive a Bentley. So your life must be so great. What people don't realize is that fame, whatever your worst experience in high school, when you were being bullied by those ten kids in high school, fame is that, but on a global scale, where you're being bullied by millions of people constantly."

Of going to church, she revealed, "I have seen magical, crazy things happen. I've seen people be healed. Even now, in the church I go to, during Praise and Worship I could feel that I was maybe getting ready to speak in tongues, and I'd have to shut it off because I don't know what that church would do if I started screaming out in tongues in the back."

"You have to understand, there I feel safe," she added. "I was raised to believe that you're safe in God's hands. But I don't feel safe with myself."

Esquire's February issue goes on sale Jan. 22.