On Recovering Without PTSD
Kimberly Dozier Was Almost Killed By A Car Bomb In Iraq; Now She Tells How She Went Past Mere Survival
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Kimberly Dozier faced a horrific event, and difficult recovery, from a car bombing in Iraq where she worked as a reporter. (CBS/EARLY SHOW)
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Eye To Eye: PTSD
"Only On The Web": Kimberly Dozier speaks with PFC Jonathan Norrell, a U.S. army medic who, despite being diagnosed with PTSD, was denied a medical discharge.
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Soldiers Denied PTSD Treatment
Experts warn that a new generation of soldiers is positioned to suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. But as Kimberly Dozier reports, the military is doing little to ease their pain.
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PTSD Ignored By Military Brass
Soldiers diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder can cost the U.S. military millions each. So top brass are finding other ways to deal with the illness. Kimberly Dozier reports.
About two years ago, I died on the operating table - technically, a few times.
My camera crew, Paul Douglas and James Brolan, and a young army captain we were following, lost their lives, as did an Iraqi translator, killed by a massive car bomb.
One of the hardest parts of healing, I've since learned, wasn't learning to walk or run again - it's been catching everyone else up with the journey from victim, to survivor.
I can't really blame them.
These pictures of me create a lasting impression, so loved ones and coworkers have had a hard time knowing when to stop coddling me. If you've ever had a trauma victim in your family, you know what I mean.
Doctors have found the key to recovery is attitude, from the moment you open your eyes in that hospital bed.
A Navy Seal put it best, in a note he posted on his Bethesda Naval hospital door. It read: "I'll have a full recovery - that's the utmost physically my body has the ability to heal. Then I will push about 20 percent further, through sheer mental tenacity. If you're not prepared for that, go elsewhere."
In other words, leave your pity at the door.
I think the other assumption some people have about trauma patients, and combat troops, is that we're scarred for life in our heads and hearts. Even some friends assume I'm plagued by nightmares and flashbacks, all the symptoms of the dreaded post-traumatic stress disorder, or PTSD.
Newsflash: You can go through hell and end up with some of those symptoms, yes, but you can get rid of them. It's not a life sentence.
Dispelling the flashbacks for good can be as simple as talking about them, saying out loud, "Yeah, that shooting/bombing/car crash gave me some nightmares. I keep remembering it, feeling the blast like it's happening now."
When people who are haunted by these things DON'T talk about them, that's when the problems start.
How did I avoid getting PTSD? I talked my head off, and then I wrote everything I could remember.
Whatever works.
Even if you went through hell, trust me, you can leave it behind. I'm living proof.

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See all 57 CommentsThe only read difference between "Winners" and "Losers", is that "Winners" never stop! They don''t whine, they don''t complain, they just pick themselves up (sometimes with help) and get on with their life!
Bless you for your attitude and your story. God Bless.
The only read difference between "Winners" and "Losers", is that "Winners" never stop! They don''t whine, they don''t complain, they just pick themselves up (sometimes with help) and get on with their life!
Bless you for your attitude and your story. God Bless.
I hope you haven''t hurt people that are suffering from PTSD, by them thinking they can beat this. You never beat it, you learn to live with it. Big difference from what you are trying to say.
GET OFF THE REPEAT BUTTON WE HEARD YOU THE FIRST TIME.
i AGREE, YOU NEV ER GET OVER IT. i WASN''T EVEN OFFERED COUNSELING UNTIL 6 YEARS AFTER I CAME BACK, BY THEN I HAD MADE AS MUCH ADJUSTMENT AS I COULD MAKE. nOW 30 YEARS LAER I STILL HAVE IT BUT I AM ONE OF THE LUCKY ONES. i CAME BACK WITH AN ATTITUDE I DIDN''T WANT TO HURT ANYONE AGAIN. I THINK A LOT OF WHAT HELPED ME WAS I BECAME AN ELECTRICIAN AFTER I CAME BACK AND TO BE ABLE TO BUILD AND REPAIR THINGS BROUGHT ME BACK TO REALITY. I HOPE YOU HAVEMANAGED AS WELL AS I HAVE. BEST OF LUCK TO YOU.
So you were a victim of a roadside bomb. So what? You asked for it. You put yourself in that position.
In your report some months ago, you had the audacity to compare yourself to our U.S. Marines. You are nothing like them. You are a journalist. Anything bad that happens to you is deserved.
No different than a lawyer, judge or politician. Anything bad that happens to them is deserved and should be celebrated.
Now stop your whining and get on with your life you pathetic crybaby.
--29 year of a military vet with PTSD
I am not a whiner, and I never quit. I work my butt off everyday and have all my life. And I have chronic PTSD. I talked my head off too, and I write and journal, and I have friends now that understand.
Your piece here minimalizes the idea that PTSD can at times be a debilitating condition that can at key moments ruin whole portions of your life.
You failed to acknowledge the struggles that people overcome daily, who have this condition, we were not blessed apparently with your godlike powers of omnipresent inner strength. Personally I hope you dont develope this condition. Supposedly if the VA can be believed, many people do not, inspite of being exposed to terrible incidents. However, I dont believe you have lived long enough past these experiences to really make that determination.
PTSD can take years to emerge. And that length of time is a testament to the inner strength and determination of the people who develope the disease, because initially you fight it so hard, you try so hard to go on business as usual. Whistling past the graveyard never works, but everyone tries it thinking they will be the lucky one. But like any other slowly developing chronic condition, eventually it will catch up with you. You wont notice until you develope health problems associated with chronic stress and sleep disorders. They arent obvious at first. Hard to accept, difficult to treat, and guaranteed to loose you some close friends who like yourself, think this is all about a culture of victimhood and not a *Real *Authentic *Condition. Its clear right now to me that you dont experience the world the way that I and others with PTSD do. And I hope you never do. But dont be slamming me or them for stuff you clearly do not understand.
It is possible to have been in combat situations and not have PTSD. Maybe you are one of the lucky ones.
So get a clue will you? This article is just horrid. When you get some perspective, I hope you come back and dispute your own words, apologize, and write something worthy of your journalism degree.
So I reiterate. Get a freaken Clue Woman. Stop with the shameless self promotion already and at least have the decency to compare treatment options for someone such as yourself with the average Vet regardless of era of service.
So they keep quiet, which can make it worse.
I''m just some journalist, not a soldier risking stigma to my career by speaking out. So it''s easier for me to stand up and say, ''Heck, you can talk it out...or you can try.'' If you thought I was saying "tough out" whatever you''re feeling and ignore it...you weren''t listening. If you thought that''s what I said I did, you weren''t listening either.
And if you''ve struggled with PTSD for years, can you blame me for trying to give some help and advice on what helped me avoid it, for those early on in the process? I consulted with a LOT of medical experts, and commanders, before writing this, on what they thought the healthiest message would be, to get people to GET help.
Let''s stick to the positive, people. That''s what I''m trying to do.
KD
How long has it been?
A year? 2 years?
Let us know in abouy 7 or 10 years how you feel. Because you dont have to show symptoms everyday or dramatically to have it. You only have to find the right trigger.
Want to give some advice? Want to help? Then show with excruciating detail what are happening to our veterans in the system. Not just from this war, but going all the way back. Its a bipartisan nightmare that has been ignored by the American civilian populace for far too long. Look at the Feres act and other legalities that prevent us from suing for malpractice and malicious negligence.
Good gods woman! Its not like a broken bone or even amputation. Its a wound that no one can see and that many do not acknowledge.
Some of us avoid the VA, because we have noticed that they dont make these conditions better. They only re-traumatize the vets they are treating.
mikeabc2 - I am truly sorry for what you had to endure.
sundog71 - I agree with you fully. Indeed, anyone who puts money into social security should, in theory and as justified, qualify as well.
Thank you, thank you, thank you! I had a tramatic experience when they discovered I had advanced stage of ovarian cancer (3C) two years ago. But somehow, I managed to work FORWARD. I had an extremely toxic treatments which alone could have killed me. My doctor told me I was delusional when I claimed she had "cured" me when all the tests were coming back normal during treatment. She practically forbade me from using the term "cure". My father claimed I was in denial when I kept my sense of humor.
Perhaps we have a better coping system than most, but there are sleepless, alone nights where we have to push our minds forward to see that we are alive and that life is still full of endless possibilities! I agree that PTSD can be overcome, minimalized and even avoided.
Congratulations on moving forward!
Like someone involved in a horrific automobile accident, she knows what it is like to be part of carnage but not what it is like to live carnage.
This is not the person I want speaking for all soldiers with PTSD. She is the perfect example of someone in the media taking her experience and making it our own. She doesn''t have a clue. She thinks she has done what a thousand doctors and thousands warriors have not been able to do, cure PTSD. How simple it is too. "Just suck it up."
Miss Dozier - While I respect your right to express your opinions, I don''t agree with what you''ve said here. I don''t particularly consider that I''m any more or less qualified to comment on this issue than other service members here, but I felt that I had to say something regarding your comments on PTSD. I lived through an accident that killed 7 people in 1987, and a fire in 1988 that killed 2 others. It was only from 2001 to now that I''ve been able to start dealing with it. Talking, journaling, and a lot of prayer have helped, but it still bothers me deeply at times. To give the impression, as you have, that you can "cure yourself" by just deciding to "talk a lot and get over it", is a fallacy. Yes, talking to those who can help may bring a certain level of closure, but the "haunting" never goes away; I know from personal experience. And please don''t think I''m saying that because I feel sorry for myself. I don''t. I''ve been on both sides of this issue.
If you could talk about what you went through, well, I''m glad; many people, not just servicemen & women, never find a way to communicate the issues they have. After our accidents, we all had multiple opportunities to talk to a chaplain, and through the chaplain corp. on board, to seek further help if we wanted it. To my knowledge, no member of our workcenter did.
I wish you a full recovery.
thx - CR1011
Triggers: These are things, places, times, people, sounds, smells, colors {you name it} that affects you profoundly, "triggering" the trauma, refreshing the experience and often creating intrusive thoughts, mood swings, adrenaline rushes, or even flashbacks.
Flashback: in my experience is a memory that is so powerful, that it completely fools you waking mind that you are reliving the moment that is your trauma.
Anniversary: Calendar dates that correspond with greater or lesser traumas, and when they come around, the person can find themselves inexplicably irratible, participating in risky or violent behavior, or more pronne to flashbacks.
You are so changed that its difficult to talk to people who dont have PTSD, because they cannot cross that experiential chasm. They lack the capacity to comprehend, like a virgin does not comprehend coitus even if they know all the technicalities from a book.
Marcia Wickes
Marcia Wickes
Marcia Wickes
Of course they had to put " A Real Illness" because apparently so many people need to be convinced
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-a-real-illness/summary.shtml
Here is a very short checklist
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-a-real-illness/does-this-sound-like-you.shtml
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PTSD
Please feel free to assess remarks regarding Compensation seeking Behavior: Thats military jargon for Welfare Queen.
Here are additional links to PTSD that is not strictly military
http://www.darkness2light.org/KnowAbout/articles_pstraumatic_stress.asp
http://www.wramc.amedd.army.mil/education/pat_edu/womenhlth/MentalEmotion/rapetraumasynd.htm
http://www.ncptsd.va.gov/ncmain/index.jsp
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml
Marcia Wickes
Marcia Wickes
Marcia Wickes
Marcia Wickes
When it did finally strike full force, I was compelled to re-evaluate everything. It forced me to acknowledge that I had had many smaller encounters. But the feelings of helplessness that followed the bigger ones left me feeling full of guilt. Like somehow I was weak and had lied to myself in some toxic manner. I hadnt. Honestly I didnt know enough to lie. But I believed a lie and operated under the assumption it was truth.
And that left me without the necessary coping skills as well as a social support system when the time came that I needed them. Then there was no one to talk to. And no one to understand. Just long time friends calling me crazy and cutting me off because they could not relate to my experiences or inner turmoil. It was a most hurtful and isolating time.
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