BUENA PARK, Calif. (CBS/AP) Ryan Jenkins' suicide note was filled with love and jealousy.
Written by the former reality show contestant before he took his own life, the note says that he considered his bikini model ex-wife, Jasmine Fiore, the love of his life, but that he was resentful because he believed she was cheating on him, a police spokesman said Monday.
Jenkins, 32, had been charged in Fiore's gruesome slaying. The former Playboy model was found in a suitcase in a Buena Park trash bin early on Aug. 15, 2009. Her nose was broken, she was badly beaten and she was missing the last joint of all her fingers, and her teeth, presumably to hamper efforts to identify her.
Police ultimately learned her name by tracking the serial number on her breast implants, but not until Jenkins had a three-day head start on his escape.
The one-page suicide note was found on Jenkins' laptop. It was titled "Will and Testament." In the letter, he apologized to his family for causing trouble but made no mention of Fiore's slaying, Sgt. Bill Kohanek said.
The note was found on the hard drive after the former VH1 contestant hanged himself in a Canadian motel room, said Kohanek.
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"About half of the letter described how much he loved her, and in the same breath, he would talk about how frustrated she made him and that he felt very jealous about some of her relationships and that frustrated him immensely," Kohanek said.
Jenkins, who appeared on "Megan Wants a Millionaire," fled for his native Canada 24 hours after Fiore's body was found. The son of a prominent Calgary architect was found days later in an isolated motel in Hope, British Columbia, where he had committed suicide.
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