Hip-hop star Kanye West is still feeling the pain over his trophy grab from Taylor Swift last year - and he's expressing his pain all over Twitter.
West has unleashed a torrent of emotions on his official Twitter on Saturday, acknowledging he was wrong for taking an award from the country music sweetheart at the MTV Video Music Awards.
But he says he "bled hard."
West wrote that he "cancelled tour with the number one pop star in the world [Lady Gaga] ... closed the doors of my clothing office.
"Had to let employees go... for the first time I felt the impact of my brash actions ... I felt the recession from an ownership side."
He once again apologized to Swift, and says he has written a song for Swift that he hopes she will perform.
"She deserves the apology more than anyone," West wrote.
He also thanked Biz Stone and Evan Williams, Twitter's founders, "for creating a platform where we can communicate directly."
West experienced tremendous backlash over the stunt - even President Barack Obama called him a jackass.
"People tweeted that they wish I was dead," West wrote. "No listen. They wanted me to die people. I carry that. I smile and take pictures through that."
"I'm ready to get out of my own way," West wrote. "The ego is overdone ... it's like hoodies."
West is working on a new album and due to appear at the VMAs again this year.
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